Running Toward the Light

I ran and brisk-walked about 3 miles today. Yay! And you know what? I feel great. Even if I had to endure some leg cramps in the process, I feel great. The music helped a lot.

A couple of weeks ago, Carrie and I discovered this scenic walking/hiking trail up north in Bella Vista. We took a trek on it that time but were not able to do so very long because it started raining heavily. This time, we nearly reached the end of the trail, but had to turn back earlier so that sundown didn't catch up with us. Amazingly, I was able to run part of the trail. I suppose I was determined to make the most out of my work out, though I can hardly call it that. I'm almost tempted to call it an adventure - like meandering through the cobblestone streets of a foreign town. The sights were simply gorgeous! A thick forest of trees and swift running streams greeted you at each corner, bugs and birds abound. The air was delicious and richly scented. Ah. That's definitely something that must be done again. It was extremely refreshing to a body that did not find itself active, lately. It's so tempting to acquiesce to sluggishness or wanting to stay at home when you work at home and see all the house work you have to do. I've actually been wanting to go out and expend all my pent up energy for a while now, and I'm glad I finally did.

This time, the whole family was there: Carrie, Legrand, Noah, and Naty. I think Naty is getting to be real close to me. He's become very protective and even more affectionate with me. I kind of feel bad because I love them both and don't want Noah to get jealous; it's just Naty is a little more showy with his affection, and so I respond in kind. I do consciously try to give Noah a lot of attention as well, though. For the most part, they are really good and loving to each other, and I would be extremely blessed if my children treated each other the same way when I have them someday.

I think work-wise, I'm a bit burning out. It's not that I've been overworked and overstressed. It's more of I just need some time away for awhile. I still love what I do but I think I just need a break. I'm sure I'll get that break soon enough. Our business has been gaining some momentum here, though, and I am really glad. We have about 4 promising prospects out there, with one client signed already. It's awesome. I even got a very wonderful present from a few special people. Click here to find out what the present was :D Carrie and I used it the first time this 4th of July holiday and it worked great, only it's a pain in the patootie to clean!

I also got a suprising phone call from my gran today. She called because apparently, my mom wrote her a letter complaining I haven't written to her nor called her, not even for Mother's Day. I tried to explain the situation to my gran. I'm still not comfortable building a relationship with her just yet. I still can't find the will to trust my mom entirely... I am so scared to fall into that pattern of use and abuse again. I know I love my mom so much but I really am afraid that she'd break my heart again. I understand and really tried to empathize with my gran, though, but I couldn't help but feel a bit guarded because I really am not comfortable with external interference from people who don't really understand where I'm coming from. *Sigh* I love my gran, but I think I'll need some space for awhile... I spoke to my brother immediately after it to vent and he totally understood like I thought he would. Poor boy naturally got disturbed by it too, though.

Next week is something to look forward to. I'm leaving for Chicago Tuesday afternoon for a conference and that night, I am going to meet up with a friend I hadn't seen in ages from University! Rachel and I are going to have dinner and then proceed in all haste to watch the most important premiere of the year. That's right. Harry Potter 5's midnight showing. I am SO excited, I can't even begin to tell you how I feel! (Though I guess I just did :P)

After Chicago commences my week-long intensive private drama class with Harry Blundell, Director at the ACO. I am very excited. We will be using text from The Merchant of Venice (Portia's lines), and then I should be ready for my first auditions here for the play the Taming of the Shrew. I am so excited!

Tomorrow, I can hopefully start practicing my solo at Church. Lourdes, our Music Director wants me to do a Filipino song! Keeping that in mind, it's 10:38am and I have to be in Church by 9:30 tomorrow. So, I'll end it here for now...

God Bless, good night, and have a good weekend!